It took one month for us to get pregnant with Elliott, pregnancy #3 and this one. With Spencer it took 11 months, but for several of those months I was waiting to regain a regular cycle ofter having my IUD removed.
I don't feel the same level of anxiety or nervousness that I felt last year. In fact, I feel serene and peaceful about the whole thing. I took several tests yesterday that were positive (I know you can't be kinda pregnant). But, I needed the certainly of the digital test to ease my mind and be certain my eyes weren't creating something that wasn't there.
I wonder if my nervousness is tempered by the idea that I could miscarry. Perhaps it is an emotionally protective measure to prevent me from being too excited in the wake of loss? I like to think that I have matured and that I am not as neurotic as I once was (yes, I took 5 pregnancy tests in 24 hours). I also feel like we are more ready to welcome a 3rd child into our family.
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